So continues my journey with anti-depressants. The nausea is not quite as bad anymore and I'm at a point where I can kind of ignore it, but it's still persistent. No thoughts of suicide other than thoughts of being vigilant against thoughts of suicide 1. Still drowsy. Still yawning a lot. Still having trouble sleeping. Still having brain reset ( Read more... )

Are the things that I am sacrificing worth the purpose for which they sacrificed? More importantly, is my purpose worth what I am sacrificing? These are questions that imply meaning deeper than the words with which they are expressed. I do not know my purpose. I do not know that which calls me from a deep longing - or some other emotion which has ( Read more... )

The Bible mentions that the character of something can be determined by the fruits that it bares. Granted, that particular statement was meant to describe the fruits of faith and a true believer. However, I think it also has some practical value as well. In general, regardless of how something is on the inside or how someone says it is, it can ( Read more... )

My paid account status definitely expires on Sunday. That's pretty sad for me, as I've had a paid account for the last two or three years. I just can't afford to pay for another year ( Read more... )

I got the hairbrained scheme to watch all three Lord of the Rings: Extended Editions all in a row today. So far, I'm somewhere on the first disk of Return of the King. I started a little after ten this morning. Technically speaking, I should be done with them by now, but I had to take some breaks. It's interesting to see them all in order. ( Read more... )

This post is mostly for blackpenguin15 (mainly because I've locked the entry, so that he's the only one that can read it) because he asked me about a certain time that involved Hannah. I figured that he wouldn't want to wade through all the entries I had made about Hannah, so I compiled it into this entry. It's the short version, but it's still pretty long ( Read more... )

Everything is really freaky!!! All this stuff is piling up and I'm still lost in this maze of infatuation. Basically, I'm probably the closest I've ever been to choosing to walk away from my "No-Dating Policy". Sadly, I've been talking with Pat about the whole issue and Rachele ( Read more... )

Today has been an interesting day, as well as yesterday. I'll start off with yesterday ( Read more... )

For now, I'll leave this as friends-only, but I may move it to private. For my friends, this will seem a little abrupt and new. I'll be diving into my history a bit, though ( Read more... )